In November, I never thought I’d see the light of day through my sadness and utter frustration. It’s amazing what two months can do! I’m quite content where I’m working, albeit still in production. I do not like the drive, but I have found outlet’s to make it pass faster and more bearable.
In December, I think I was still coming down from my previous work experience and I still held a lot of negative energy from it.
After my return from Gaspe, I tried to figure out ways to get me out of my slump. I inquired about Soul Coaching and found it quite appealing and frankly, something I truly felt I needed. Sure, I can go on and on about losing weight and I can lose it, only to gain it back. I can go on and on about how great life is in my present moment, only to find myself in an abyss of unhappiness a few months later. I need to get to the root before I can solve the other problems completely.
So if this doesn’t work, I’ve resided to the fact that I will be a fat, bitter bitch for the rest of my life (ha ha).
Wednesday night is group session. I had a wonderful meal on Bloor with my friend Robi and then high-tailed it to Brunswick to find a parking spot. I plan on doing this every week and also touring around this area. I love Toronto and what a better time than now to explore a little?
My first group session was amazing. It’s amazing how much a little deep breathing and visualization can do for the body and spirit of a person. I didn’t think I could do it with a group of 5 women around, but I figured, what the hell….when in Rome. In fact, it was so powerful that when we took a break, I really didn’t feel like a cigarette (nope didn’t quit yet).
Since Wednesday, I have been following taped visualizations and doing 3 levels of exercises every day. Nope, not physical exercise, but mental. For example, day 1 was just clarifying what my goals are and where my beliefs lie. Day 2, was starting to focus on the physical clutter in our lives because they deeply affect the emotional clutter in our mind and soul.
I’ve managed to get my kitchen renovated, lose 5 pounds, and clutter clear my bathroom and kitchen since Friday. I’m quite amazed with myself, as I have a heel spur and very swollen feet for some reason. I just kept chugging along and was happy doing it instead of whining about it in my mind.
I wake up each and every morning with the song “I Gotta Feeling” playing on my IPOD alarm clock. What a great way to start a day! I highly suggest that anyone with an IPOD to spend the $1.99 for the full version for the Alarm Clock Application. I drive to work and return home singing at the top of my lungs. Yes, I must look like a real loony tune to those drivers beside me, however, I’m probably in a better mind space than any of them right now.
Who knows what will happen between now and next Monday? I could be laid off, but I’ve dealt with it internally. I could be in another position with the company, and I don’t really know if I want to do it or not. With that said, I’m open to anything that life brings forth to me.
I’m not too sure if the renovation initiative will pan out and after much consideration….if it doesn’t happen the way I want it to, Que Sera Sera.
We, as a family, lived through much worse and I’m sure we will have our dark days ahead. If we do it together, all will be better. I will continue to share my journey with you because so far, 2010 has been great.
Til Next Time,
T
