There is something about a new moon that asks for honesty. The quiet internal kind. The kind where you assess what is working. You examine what is unraveling. You decide what you are no longer willing to carry alone. I know, the new moon was on January 18th.

Currently, my life sits at the crossroads of housing uncertainty and business legalities. The emotional strain arises from both. I am a single woman navigating legal stress while trying to sustain stability. I am doing it carefully. I am doing it responsibly. And I am doing it while continuing to show up for my work and my life. I am also doing a lot of research.

I am not sharing details to create noise. I am documenting this season because naming reality is sometimes the only way ahead.

When Housing Stability Feels Fragile

Housing should be foundational. When it becomes uncertain, it affects more than logistics. It alters your sense of safety, your sleep, and your ability to focus. Even when you are meeting your obligations. I have been feeling off for months, but this month was worse. I gave my notice and I informed them that I no longer feel safe here.

This housing stress is rarely visible. You still function. You still work. You still meet deadlines. But internally, your nervous system is carrying the load of uncertainty. Having a roof over your head no longer feels guaranteed. But, I’m the type of take action and I have found a beautiful place. I believe it’ll be a haven that I need until the trailer opens in May. I have four days left here, and I feel my heart rising as the day gets closer.

For single women especially, housing instability carries an added layer of emotional and financial pressure that often goes unspoken.

Navigating Business Legalities With Clarity

At the same time, I am navigating the legal realities of a business partnership coming apart. I built something with intention and trust. I believed in shared effort and shared responsibility. But I led with empathy until I became resentful. This is on me. I should have been direct from the beginning. What this season is teaching me is that good faith is not the same as governance.

When business shifts from collaborative to legal, it brings grief, complexity, and hard decisions. Lawyers replace conversations. Documents replace assumptions. It is not what anyone hopes for, but it is sometimes necessary.

Clarity has a cost. It also creates long term stability. That said, I am working on making this media company bigger and better than ever. I have many cheering me on too and wanting to help in any way they can.

What This Season Is Teaching Me About Resilience

This period of legal and emotional stress has required a different kind of strength. Precision strength. No time for tears. No time for sitting in my sorrow. It takes action and lots of it.

After 53 years, I am learning how to separate emotion from execution. How to document rather than explain. I have been an over explainer for far too long. How to protect my energy without disengaging from my life. I take naps now. I have to or I would have a heart attack I’m sure.

Being under pressure does not mean I am unstable. It means I am navigating multiple systems at once and to work steadfast, rather than reactionary.

As a single woman managing both housing uncertainty and business legalities, I am learning that resilience is not loud. It is disciplined. I am also determined to keep my podcast current during all the chaos.

I had a meeting the other day with a few people on redoing my whole trailer scene. Full covered deck and patio stones. I am only looking at a positive outcome this time. I have zero time for what if’s, it won’t work out, or anything.

This my friends will be my last hurrah even if it kills me.

A New Moon Resolve

A new moon represents beginnings that have not fully taken shape yet. Quiet decisions. Internal recalibration. The kind of resolve that does not need an audience.

This is where I am now. Not broken. Not defeated. Just rebuilding stability with intention.

I am choosing self trust over self doubt. Structure over assumption. Clarity over comfort.

People can watch and stalk. Wish me bad luck or really dislike me. Within it all, I am me and I’m growing into a person who wants healthy relationships only.

Imagine being someone who have had friends and family who deserted them at a time in their life. But when that person complied with deserter’s expectations, everyone comes running back. I see it happen so often and it makes me sick. It’s a very sad reality and it happens too much. Know yourself, the people who truly love you will stay.

However, I do have a to say, most of those who truly know me have never left. Yes, my ex-husband did, but he was living a double life. However, I still have every friend during the 22 years we built a relationship with them. And remember, I was pretty bat shit crazy for a while. Yes, healthy relationships are hard to find, but when you do, they are golden. I am truly blessed.

New moon. New day. And a grounded commitment to move forward on my own terms. Yes, I had it all in 2025. A negative breakup, a bad landlord, and a business partner who really didn’t see it as a business. I will never depend on anyone governing my life. Especially, when it comes to the roof over my head, the heart in my soul, or the spontaneous nature of my being.

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